It was just a moment...a fleeting thought. They come + go quickly, but I long to catch this one like the snowflakes falling outside my window. I want to catch just one + observe it quick before it melts away.
I'm not going to say that I avoided all the sale hype this weekend. During past Black Friday frenzies, I diligently deleted all sneaky sale emails that found their way through to my inbox + moved on. I kept myself away from the shops completely. In the days that followed I'd start thinking of a few thoughtful gifts I'd like to give...and realize that I probably could have saved some money over the weekend. The what-ifs crept in any way.
This year, I took a thoughtful look at the emails that came...deleting most of them...but considering a few. Even then, I felt pressure to make decisions before the end of the sale. I felt urgency + desire that wasn't there before.
Today there is a snowstorm. We knew it was coming, so when I woke up...I knew there was no rush...no place to be. I got cozy with a book + read...a lot. The day unfolded lazily for all of us. The wind blew...the snow whirled. We drank tea + ate soup. And just for a single moment, I caught a thought before it melted away...this is what it's all for...this is what we want + need...a roof over our heads, cozy comforters, left-over birthday cake, heat, light, running water, comfy layers + socks. We have enough. We have "home". And it is good.
No need for more...no frenzy or fear of missing out. Sometimes a single second of clarity presents itself...like that moment when your ears unpop + you can hear fully again + hearing feels like a gift...a miracle...and a minute later that realization is lost. I don't want to forget. I have what I need...what I want to give my girls...what I want...and it is good...so good.
May you experience + recognize those fleeting moments of clarity in the season to come.
Love,
Jane
I'm not going to say that I avoided all the sale hype this weekend. During past Black Friday frenzies, I diligently deleted all sneaky sale emails that found their way through to my inbox + moved on. I kept myself away from the shops completely. In the days that followed I'd start thinking of a few thoughtful gifts I'd like to give...and realize that I probably could have saved some money over the weekend. The what-ifs crept in any way.
This year, I took a thoughtful look at the emails that came...deleting most of them...but considering a few. Even then, I felt pressure to make decisions before the end of the sale. I felt urgency + desire that wasn't there before.
Today there is a snowstorm. We knew it was coming, so when I woke up...I knew there was no rush...no place to be. I got cozy with a book + read...a lot. The day unfolded lazily for all of us. The wind blew...the snow whirled. We drank tea + ate soup. And just for a single moment, I caught a thought before it melted away...this is what it's all for...this is what we want + need...a roof over our heads, cozy comforters, left-over birthday cake, heat, light, running water, comfy layers + socks. We have enough. We have "home". And it is good.
No need for more...no frenzy or fear of missing out. Sometimes a single second of clarity presents itself...like that moment when your ears unpop + you can hear fully again + hearing feels like a gift...a miracle...and a minute later that realization is lost. I don't want to forget. I have what I need...what I want to give my girls...what I want...and it is good...so good.
May you experience + recognize those fleeting moments of clarity in the season to come.
Love,
Jane
